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A MOTHER’S SECRET EXPOSED!

In Uncategorized on June 11, 2014 at 6:48 pm

MY DIRTY LITTLE SECRET!

We have all done it. I know I am guilty of it. Chances are if you are reading this you’re guilty too. So what is it? OK I’ll go first. I don’t always enjoy being a mom! I can hear you gasp. Before you condemn me let me explain. I’m not saying I don’t want to be a mom or that I don’t love my kids. I love my kids more than life. Most days I love being a mom. Being a mom is rewarding in a way that is hard to articulate. Then there are those other days. You know the kind of days I am talking about.

I wake up at five and find I have no coffee in the house. Life must go on,so I drag myself to the teenagers room. My Good morning time for school in my nicest voice is met with “God Mom five more minutes”. After five  more times of calling him he gets up and stomps down the steps. Now he complains that he can’t eat because he is running late. My annoyance level is rising. Now it is time to wake up the to smaller ones. Smooth sailing right? NO! There’s a hole in the youngest child’s sock, he will not put it one with a hole.. The older of the two has lost his shoe. While I start to look for the shoe a tantrum is going on behind me over the sock. Rushing,crying and freaking out and that just me, the tone is set for the day. It isn’t even nine am yet.. The day keeps going that way. There’s a  forgotten lunch and a call from school about a playground incident.Not to mention the odor coming from the teenagers room. By the time they get home I am tapped out.I have hardly done any work in the office. Now it’s homework,dinner baths and “oh by the way Mom I need 24 cup cakes by tomorrow”  The teenager still hates the world and me. The youngest is telling me I am not fair because I want him to use the soap in the shower. I look at the clock and think “Where the #### Is their Father?

My husband comes home an hour late,no phone call. He looks like he had a great day. I on the other hand look like I just escaped from a state hospital and may be considered armed and dangerous.My husband proceeds with caution as he is a smart man. He then takes over with the kids. Who, by this time are little angels of course.

As I sit in my bedroom door shut TV on I start to cry. I admit to myself in thought only, that in this moment, I hate being a Mom. I then feal instantly guilty!!!!! What kind of Mom doesn’t feel blessed and blissful every second of everyday? I must be a terrible mother right? Wrong! I’m not a bad mom. I am human and imperfect. I make mistakes..Being a mom is hard work! The rewards are many, yes but not always instantaneous. It is OK to admit that it isn’t all sunshine and roses. Nothing worth doing ever is.It is OK to have moments as long as you can answer yes to these questions:Do my kids know they are loved?

  • Are they happy?
  • Are they healthy?
  • Am I doing my personal best( Not someone else s)?

Do you have UN Mommy like moments? Do you think I am wrong? Let me know in the comments.

TS

 

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